Ponders of mEself


today is wednesday....
of cos it is..eheh
well soon it will b thurs


i wish 2 thank god fer
now i'm still alive
along wif my family
n frens i will nvr
find sumwhere else


wat will b of me
in 5 yrs time?
i will b in NS??
sailing the 7 seas???
or just sit arnd
n wait or
just as well rot?


now, my responsibility
is to b a gd son 2 my family
a gd student 2 my teachers
n a gd fren or company 2
any1 out there whom met me


regrets....everlasting
shld do better
y tis attitude
where i noe dat
i must work hard
2 achieve wateva i want
but i just don't want 2 be
y? y? y?


when will i learn
frm my mistakes?
how do i better in life
if i don't change??


god, pls help me
as u r the only 1
i can look forward for
who else can i ask??


where is my love?
R u arnd me, but i don't
notice it?? Or izzit
even does'nt exist?


haiz...i feel lonely :(
i need sum1 to share
my feelings towards to
other than my family
n frens....


only god knows....
i'm just weak person
i've got to admit it...
but am i a total failure?

here..i am again changing the template fer the 2nd time in 2 days..wow..wat am i trying to do?..Don't i got sumtink better to do?? hehe i luv doing tis man...playing arnd wif the codes ... experimenting...supposely to improve on mE blog...well does it?? well let's drop tis crap...


Just now, in the morning i have a so called meeting to be carried out in front of my lecturer...there r 5 of us..the chairman, kumar..secretary, marinah...hehe the only rose in mE class among other 19 more bugs...n I'm wif fiq n omar were the union members...we were discussing abt the workers asking fer pay rise, annual increment...shift allowances, n blah blah blah.......i did'nt speak dat well...i dunno y?? I feel different..not dat comfortable...maybe bcos eyes r looking at me...my other classmates were all like purposely sit so close n they were all eyes n ears. howeva i think, i did quite well...so were my grp...*yeah*


actuallie..
.............i'm
bored....................
rite............
..........now

I'm still in sch rite as just now were practising fer tmr's so call "union meeting" to draw up a new proposal which will then be presented to the management of a company...actuallie tis is part of a module i'm taking in sch,which is Communications Skills for Work (CSW). So we hav to rush on certain details n found out that there were alot of errors..my god, if tis were to happen tmr, we r dead! Luckly it happened todae...hehe, so dat's y i'm still in sch rite now to make the amendments...my class ended quite late fer todae, it's at 5pm...

Wow!! It's the 5th wk of sch n in 3 wks time, it' s term test!! TIME reallie flies veri fast..super fast... Oh my, i have'nt do any revision yet...*stress*, then the following wk, it's gonna be e-learning wk..*happy* as i don't need to go to sch...haha. Just stay at hm n finish up the assignment given *sad*...there'll b loads of them...seriously....my stomach is grumbling rite now...hehe..where's my food!! I DEMAND it now!! hahaha...Nowadays, i feel hungry easier than ever...y? Anybody that can help me ans tis?? Arghh...it hurts...

i'm feeling better now than yesterday, much2 better :D I was down wif fever n felt so weak, seriously...luckily it was not during school time or i will hav lots of catching up to do...hehe..well as u can see, i've just changed my template as the old 1 was'nt suitable when alot of entries are posted, so it became vertically longer..so i looked for those that hav the scroller...it was reallie tough to find a suitable 1 dat fits my situation or personalities...however i managed to find tis template...In every darkness, u shall find the light someday...life is'nt unfair, it's up to u to decide..

Guys, i need help to input a song fer my blog..so is there any1 dat can help me??

I better go off now fer sch is starting tmr at 9...I shld take a gd rest.

Make them laugh, help them learn Vol.2
By David W.F.Wong

Just borrowed frm the sch's lib...hehe 1st time borrowing sumtink frm there aft almost 2 yrs in sch...well3...eventhough the subject is light, but it carries along wif it a strong message...to learn frm jokes are reallie fun n nvr boring as u will like to read more of it...like once u pop u can't stop, same goes fer the book here...the book includes loads of proverbs frm all corners of the world..fer example "there are no miracles to the man who does not believe in them" is a french proverb, "he who is afraid of a thing gives it power over him" is a moorish proverb...btw wat's a moorish??

I've got tis 1 story frm the book to share..."A boy was caught stealing pencils from the school office. The school took a serious view of the matter. The principal called his father in for a conference.
"Your son was caught stealing pencils from the office. This is serious and may constitute grounds for suspension or dismissal."
The father looked at his son with anger."Son, why did you take those pencils?"
"Because I ran out of my own pencils."
"Why did'nt you tell me, son? You could always take those pencils I brought from my office!"

In tis story, the father only noticed abt his son's mistakes, however not his's...it's human nature that we spot other ppl's mistakes easier than our's...let's ponder b4 sleeping, thinking of our own faults...in tis way, ur next day will b very much better...

Got nuthin left to say...tmr will b a long day, so i need lots of rest as possible...hehe..gd nite guys!

The moment u r feeling happy wif life n all seems dat everything were to go smoothly n as planned, the next moment, u will realise dat everything is in topsy-turvy condition....In life there r always the opposite of almost everything, like boy with gurl, happy with sad, short with tall, beautiful with ugly, black with white n many2 more examples....

Today i woke up till b4 sleeping, a few bad things had happened to me...1stly, i was late fer sch n 2 make things worse, i noticed dat my hp was missing as i was walking towards my sch...who will nvr panicked?? my 1st time losing a hp..there's always a 1st fer everything..my fren use to say it...hahaha...rezeki sesapa yg jumpa my hp tu...cepat2 i called singtel 2 suspend the line, kalo tk nanti bila bill sampai aleh2 jek nanti melambong...sapa nk bayar??? Then, after a short meeting wif my grp, went off to werk n reached there a bit late..but luckly not overboard..haha...Next i was so blurr of wat's happening or wat i'm supposed to do, as suddenly a lot of things i need to memorise..haha.. terkejut lagi..fer the 2nd time...hmm..later when i'm on the way to the bus-stop, i twisted my ankle...*AWW!*

That's some short story of me todae...haha..need to wake up early tmr fer sch..so better sleep now, as my eyes are dazzy..my pillow n bed r calling n i mean literally calling me...haha..okies..dat's all folks...byeeeeee!

Haha...here comes rayagiler2005...well yesterday we set of as early as 9am..memang giler eh kite sume...pagi2 dah nk start jln rayer..tk pernah nmpk ade org buat cam gini..i mean in a big grp abt 16 of us..kalo ade bilang eh...haha...gi umah rizal 1st. Mak dier masak nasi lemak..yum2, mmg sedap..say thnx to ur mum eh zal...next we went to umah Sofee, then Seri's hm...n we were like amik gmbr those yg bohria...haha..yg same colour together gitu...paling kelakar is when rizal dpt 4 gurls wif him..pakai merah sehh..garang gitu...then he appoint his 1st wife, 2nd n so on..haha cukup lengkap dier nyer quota...then we move on to tmn jrg 2 ustzh rasunah nyer hm..mkn kari daging cicah ngan roti..boleh tahan jugak kari dier..ade ooomph!!

After dat gi umah azmil...bdk bahas..nk bebual ngan dier kene hati2..bidasan nya cukup pedas...berasap nanti telinga sesape yg mendgrnya..haha..ok moving on to capsicum nyer umah lak..mkn pizza..but not sure wat type nyer eh...sedap jugak..ada manis2..ada spicy2..eh ade ke??
Nt really sure ar..ade distraction ar..so focused tgk adik dier main ps2..haha..then we move on to umah bibik..haha sebijik like 1 when she dressed up..haha jgn marah eh...gurau2 jek..Ok..now we r moving to JW..umah cina..cina aru convert nyer..haha..I LUV TIS!! kacau2 org haha...arnd tis time sume dah penat...batt dah weak..so active all day long..dah pancit dah sume org ..haha...nw bergerak to my hm..my mum ada masak mee hoon goreng..actuallie i asked her to do so....haha bkn ape tis the 1st time my frens cuming over to my hm...so buat a gd impression lar nie...haha..aik dah brape byk "haha" dah...btw nvm..Now it's like after maghrib..we serang umah ustzh asma' lak..dier msk soto ayam..me sampai bertambah2, until my frens sume tegur..haha..tapi mmg sedap ar..seriously..it's like 1 of my favs...

Now we r saving the best for the last...gi umah zahidah pat Redhill...cheh..mentang2 dpt duit..sume naik cab gi sana..nk cepat org kata..nk kejar masa..bila dah sampai sana jejak je umah dier FUHH!! terpegun sekejap...cantik sungguh umah dier..very unique..very elegant..haha sampai i wish if i can buy the house...haha...boleh?? Pastu we watch our own movie...i mean zahidah ade bawak video cam....so she's the camwomen of the day...tgk our own actions can be very funny..n we like saying to ourself that how stupid i can be....haha

Lastly, i will like to sum up everything abt yessy...had lots of fun..really!! Sume very lively n supportive...gerek seh...i will miss moments like tis if we were 2 lose contacts..wish tis will nvr happen..btw me wanna minta maaf to all of my frens kalo ade terkasar bahasa ke..mana yg terkecil hati..secara me sengaja ataupun tk maafkan lar..ikhlas dari hati..me menghulurkan 10 jari memohonkan keampunan dari kwn2 ku...*sedih* maafkan lar...insyallah kalo ade umur yg panjang n ade masa we'll meet again next yr...so guys the pics will b rite up soon so just wait for it...haha cya guys...bubye

After mayb abt almost 2 yrs, we will b meeting again each other to make up lost time...haha wow..dah nk start jln rayer tmr so early @ 9am trus gi umah Rizal. Dier kata mak dier masak sarapan..bagus eh..then we'll go arnd JW ext...then go to Tmn Jrg a few houses there n as well as umah utzh. rasunah..then most probably over to JW to my house...Whole grp of abt 15 ppl will serbu every house we go hahaha...Agak camne eh dorang sume..confirm ada yg dah berubah byk nyer....jgn aku terkejut beruk dah ar...so will meet u guys tmr n hope to hav fun as well..should sleep early today as tmr will b a long day..nitez!!

Well...woke up to a rainy day n feels so sleepy that my eyes just wanna close n continue sleeping, however got a class 2 attend @ 8... rush 2 skool n i forgot to bring my sweater along n was like shivering in class. Later in the afternoon aft lunch, is my practical at the workshop...made a BIG mistake fer last wk, where welding is involved. Made a hole at a pipe where i should actually repair it...mcm tikus membaiki labu gitu. Just hate it alot when the pipe undergo a water pressure test, it leaks like at so many points...haiz...dunno wat to say oready...feel so bad abt myself...haha btw not reallie that bad, just got to tell myself that i will do better next wk...yes I CAN!!!

I've got sumtink to share wif whoever that visits my blog that what we do or wat ppl think abt u, u r the only 1 that will make what they say abt u is true or not. For example that u r weak or slow in ur studies or in wateva ur doing rite now, u n only u who can actually change ppl's perception of u. So bring urself up, n prove to the world that they r wrong, n u will n can achieve the best in all ur endeavours. So ponder on the next few paragraph, a lesson for life.

If you think you are beaten - you are!
If you think you dare not - you don't
If you'd like to win but you think you can't
It's almost certain you won't

If you think you'll lose, you've lost
For out in the world you'll find
Success begins with a fellow's will
It's all in the state of mind

If you think you are outclassed - you are
You've got to think high to rise
You've got to be sure of yourself, before
You can win the prize

Life's battles don't always go
To the stronger or faster man
But sooner or later, the man who wins
Is the man who thinks he can!

p.s : Dedicated to ika...tis is specially for u :)

Yo peeps...i've just uploaded the raya pics...so u guys can check it out by clicking "RayaSakan2005" under the gallery. Have fun!

Yesterday...i went out wif my classmates, all together there were 8 of us..so GEMPAK GILER!! Ape nyer tidak, this was the 1st time ever b4 that we went out in 1 car! My fren, An was the driver of the day...aru jugak pass TP in August kalo tk silap..terror jugak driving dier..hmm jgn kembang eh aku puji2 nie..lol Satu Singapore kite jln frm Jurong to Woodlands to Yishun to Bedok to Ubi to Tampines..name it, n we were there...hahaha.. The most important thing is that dpt duit raye $$$... muahaha..ish3 mata duitan betul...At the end of the day, our bonding really got better and stronger, we joke wif each other scolded JUS when he told the wrong way to Kif's hm LAWAK HABIS..teruk dier kene kutuk frm others kuang3...Not forgetting to have fun, eventhough i felt tired when i reached hm, it was nearly 12 frm morning @ 10 after our class.. I really enjoyed the whole day.

Hello every1 out there..this is ma 1st time creating a blog..so gimme constructive comments..thnx alot!